Monday, May 31, 2010

taste good Donut & Coffee

Thursday, May 27, 2010

It's thursday

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I'm glad, we got a lot of conversation. Met at college, talked at facebook and twitter. It was fun, but why you acting such a jerk?!
I just want to showed you the Real me. A girl with full of jokes, a bit silly, and who want to be a comedian. I won't to be shy to show the real me. I just want to show you the way i am.
Perhaps, you thought i'm over dramatic, but it just caused i was to worried about your act. Of course you never know, how worried i am when i heard you sick. Did you know that a lame smoker who spent my mind for?
We met at college, you never talk. We like never known each other.
Give me your good attitude?! Just once. Please


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Monday, May 24, 2010


Eating Blenger burgen in rainny day.

i'm not going to college. When people starts their activity i'm vacation :)

This photo really making me laugh. Look at his face, my brother seem like a arab's girl :8
He took by himself. Narcism

Thursday, May 20, 2010

i had so many dreams about you and me

Just want show you my favorite song before i go to sleep.
Lyric of this song such an amazing. And the title is really draws my dreams if we could be the one.
We'll just see what happen next. Wont to be hopefully but it will be hurt if you get down.
One thing i should be grateful: i never felt any hugs, any kisses or something of you, which is will be harder for me.

by the way, i get a cough, and it's annoying. My voice like an ugly frog.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010


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you sat next to me in statistics class when first month of my college day. We made introduction each other, you asked me first, remember? :p
Formely, there wasn't special feeling, and heartbeating. Even, i thought, he was gadfly boy.
You're not handsome, you're not kind..okay, you're kind. But you never did something to makes me happy. Then, you're not smart. And there's nothing special on you.
But i'd realized, sometimes my eyes looked for you around my classroom. Sometimes, i lost control and staring at you over and over. And how embarrassed when i get caught. You became my own reason to go colloge.

I remember when for the first time i texted you, i had waited so long but you didn't reply yet.
I was shocked when you called with your father's number. I feel want to jump and dancing round my room. Just 11 minutes, but it was my precious time. Fortunately, we got same class everday. I dont know when my feeling bigger than before. I used all my own trick so we could come closer. I tried as i could, okay i admitted, we're come closer. You need me as i am. But different requirement.
I need you because you're my own reason to go college, no lie! You need me because i'm the one who helped you with your homework. It's hurt you know. But... honestly i can't let you in trouble with those homework. I always helped as i could.

From a reason, you became my own heroine as edward said hehe.
You can't imaginate how sad i am, if you didn't come. 1 day feel like 1 year. It called when a girl falling in love. It just one day, how about 2 days, 3 days or 1 weeks or 2 months ?! I should find a way so.. you can't be in my mind. That's why i looked for a job. In the end, oh.. not too bad.

When once a day, i saw your photo with a girl. A skinny white girl and i know she would be your new girlfriend. I cried for a night till i feel satisfied. I decided i should forget you. I removed your name in my mind, my contact phone, and my facebook's friend. It was hardest part. I told myself , we never known each other. For beginning was easy. I been busy with my job.

And when you were holiday, i knew you got an accident. I was't too afraid, because i thought it was a small accident ;p. Then, you came home and you'd realized we weren't friend anymore on facebook. You add me back, and unfortunately when with perforce i confirm your request, you were online! BANG! Without BA-BI-BU you asked me to picked up the phone. You asked me why i removed you from friendlist, i have no idea to answered. Because, answerd just one question it meant opened my secret. You thought, i wont be your friend anymore. Then, you told me you got an accident in Bali. I was happy, you needed me when you get a problem. But where were you when you're happy?

I just want to asking, why every i tried forget about you, and when i feel gave up... you came back to my life. Given all of your positif-attidude. Then you leave me alone with a fake hope.
You never know, how hurt it was.

this video accompany me when i was down.
taylor swift such an amazing singer <3

Sunday, May 16, 2010


i woke up this morning because shout of father. Yeah, his bad habit. No matter weekend or weekday he always shouting. I started my day with a cup of brown coffee. Then, i went 'to my rabbit's cage to feeding them with some vegetables, i was shocked! There're was like clod of meat. I asked to myself 'Who gave some meat for my rabbits? But when i saw closer... That wasn't meat, IT WAS BUNNYS, BABIES OF MY RABBITS! I was pretty shocked. I know, Ashley was pregnant, but i didn't supposed if it was the time! I shouted immidiately, 'Mom, Ashley got babies!' My mother was shocked as i was. We didn't know what to do. Actually, we had gotten babies of our pets, but it was hamster. Hamster is easy pet. So we hadn't met any difficulties. But it's rabbits. I should do the right thing to my lovely pets. Ashley have been with us for more than one year.

Then, my mother asked me to separating Ashley & Jackson (dad of babies :B) with the babies. There're 7 babies, but 2 of them dead because trapped in cage. I was too late to save them ;(. Even, one of them had been dead with tragically. Like mutilated victim, his head separated with the body. Can you imaginated? By the way, congratulation for me, Ashley and Jackson.
BUUUUUU, i'm to be a grandma. hehehee
I'm proud of you, Shley!! <3



Pic of babies

but itsn't mine. I google it

Thursday, May 13, 2010

High School

High school is one of the best moments i ever had. And i guess, now i'm agree wth statement who said ' High school is the best moment ever '. Previously, i thougt Junior was the best. But, you know.. God always giving us best to the best :)

On the first year, i was a tomboy girl. I wasn't ashame to join and play with the boys. Played an extremely game, and i'm only the one girl who played 'kuda tomporok - sorry, i don't know in english'
Those boys also never thought i'm a girl, they thought i'm a boy same with them ;(. So.. There wasn't special treatment for me. If you asked to my first year friends, what memory you must remember about me? I bet they would answer 'She was a distributor porn video.'
I admitted, i used to watch porn video with them *by cellular phone without feel horny or something. I know they felt it too. But i'm not remember if i was a distributor :/

Second year was a crazy year. A year where all this memories started. I made friend with some crazy girls. We got a nickname who called 'Geng Gaul', you shouldn't know what it mean. Okay, it doesn't matter if only some friends used that nickname, but it would be a problem if one generation called us too. Do you think it just for a while? No! That nickname, still used for call me. And the most pitiable off all of it is... They calls me Boss or leader from geng gaul ! BANG! But now i enjoying it, it's funny if i remember how angry i am when they calls me boss.

The third year was being a best year ever. You know, separation waiting for us. I love my last class and also my classmates. We were stick together, celebrated Mrs. Sundus's birthday, cheated together and there're other precious moments that i can't said one by one.

-situasion of my class. I missed them so badly

-celebrated mrs. Sundus's birthday <3

Besides, my life wasn't stuck in my class. I got my best buddies ever. I love them much. They were a part of me. Now, even we're apart, but we still keep in touch. I know it's not easy.
With different schedule, different campus, different way, and different time,and without we realized we became different people. Sometime, there's a problem. But what we just need is understanding each other :)

from nothing to be something :)