2010 and 2011

Oh my Godness, it's end of December, and also end of 2010. 5 days left to New Year!!
It feels like yesterday, i just celebrated new year with friend.
What do you planning on for new year's eve? Hanging out with friend or your lovely one, spending time with family, fireworks, or just watching Tv at home? Hahaha just kidding.
Those are sounds great. I haven't prepared about new year's eve. It seems i would spending time at work.
But i dont know, some friends of mine already had a plan.

And i wanna say, Thanks God for all you've done to me.

This year, i got a lot of happiness, experiences, laugh, sadness, and other.
This year, i tried new experience. Trying produce my own money. Worked with other. Being professional, and independen women.
This year, i was turning nineteen. And my friends gave me the best adorable birthday ever. How sweet.
This year, i was fall in love with the guy i shouldn't fall in.
This year, i can filled my requirements with my own way.
This year, makes new friends, failed at classes.
This year, Indonesia was crying. Disasters are everywhere.
But overall, 2010 was being so nice with me. Thanks for my God :')

Flashback on my 2010's memories

celebrating new year at Saras's.

My trumpet organized as flied fish, and i was forgetting to take it home. But it still at saras's room at same place until now. 

brought nikkor 50mm f/1.8D

Not to expensive than i thought, but spending enough my money.

Ncek's birthday on last August

Gave some friends a blast surprise birthday. I'm such surprises maker, i also got mine.

Brought an iPod touch 4th Generation.

For this, i spent almost all of my money. But it really useful for me. Rescuing me from boredom.

Last year, i didn't make a resolution for next year. I let time go on by its way. But i decide, i should make a resolution for next year.

 In 2011, i have to be a better human. Stoping all of my bad habbit. Be a nice daughter. Graduate college as soon as possible. Go around Indonesia. Out from this house. And many other.

 So guys, what's yours? Hope 2011 will be my year!

Oh, in 2011 i'm going 20 years old. So oldddddddddddd! Two-headed-ages -________-

Nineteen

August 22 - Yesterday was my birthday. I was officially nineteen years old. And as last year, my birthday coincided with fasting month. Just can't believe it. It's ramadhan again, it's my birthday again. Sometimes, i feel like lost my time.
Yesterday also was g-r-e-a-t ! I got two surprises this year! At first from my work-mate also with boys from high school. And second from my best buddies.

I got my job back. So it means back home late again. Just a day before my birthday, my work-mate also my high school friend turned nineteen. Let me says ' Happy Birthday, Ikhsan. You're getting older. I mean us. ' He is on August 21.

I'd been prepared a little surprise for him. Me and other work mates gave him a spongecake. But that wasn't the surprise. We threw him with some eggs and wheat flour. My friend even poured him with dirty water. Ewww poor him. Actually i was the brain of all of it. I know he would avenged. And i was right, he came to our work place. Actually, he shouldn't because he took a day off. He already had a plan. And poor me, his friends of our high school friend also came. Of course not for celebrated my birthday, but ask treating to Ikhsan hahahaha. But it got worse for me.

My work mate gave me a pudding cake as a birthday cake with nineteen's candle. That candle i used to Ikhsan birthday 24hours ago hahahhaha. They greeted me of " HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DESSY! " and ... plok! One of them threw me with an egg and the other come afterwards. My highschool boys also threw me with a dirty water after rain. It was disgusting! And continued with jogging in the night. I tried to chase them, i wont be the one who got wet. But i didnt get even one of them. My irresponsible highschool friend left me after messed up. Great!
I was all wet, stink, and chilled. Didn't bring any dry clothes but Ikhsan borrowed his.

Fortunately, they didn't take any photo. But Ikhsan's photo above was describing me enough.

At the night, my best buddies come to my work place to gave me the second surprise. They brought a cake an greeted a loud chorus. And with a silly face, i claped hand as they did. That was sweet, my name was written in the cake. After blew and slice the cake, suddenly Epi took off my eyeglasses and i dont know who, dabbed cream of cake to my face. Huhuuuuu i love them so badly.

Lastly, i want to thank you all for the wishes, attention, and greets. I hope our wishes come true. That was the sweetest birthday i've ever had. Thank you so much, dutchiesssss! Love you so much, you guys means a lot for me! <3
Dooohhh, Next year going to twenty! Noooooooo, two-headed age.

My parents? Didn't give me any special treatment for me.

gimme

image by: Julie de Waroquier

i'm sick.
i got flu, diarhea, and fever.
i need a cup of warm love.

It's thursday

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I'm glad, we got a lot of conversation. Met at college, talked at facebook and twitter. It was fun, but why you acting such a jerk?!
I just want to showed you the Real me. A girl with full of jokes, a bit silly, and who want to be a comedian. I won't to be shy to show the real me. I just want to show you the way i am.
Perhaps, you thought i'm over dramatic, but it just caused i was to worried about your act. Of course you never know, how worried i am when i heard you sick. Did you know that a lame smoker who spent my mind for?
We met at college, you never talk. We like never known each other.
Give me your good attitude?! Just once. Please

i had so many dreams about you and me

Just want show you my favorite song before i go to sleep.
Lyric of this song such an amazing. And the title is really draws my dreams if we could be the one.
We'll just see what happen next. Wont to be hopefully but it will be hurt if you get down.
One thing i should be grateful: i never felt any hugs, any kisses or something of you, which is will be harder for me.

by the way, i get a cough, and it's annoying. My voice like an ugly frog.

(L)

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you sat next to me in statistics class when first month of my college day. We made introduction each other, you asked me first, remember? :p
Formely, there wasn't special feeling, and heartbeating. Even, i thought, he was gadfly boy.
You're not handsome, you're not kind..okay, you're kind. But you never did something to makes me happy. Then, you're not smart. And there's nothing special on you.
But i'd realized, sometimes my eyes looked for you around my classroom. Sometimes, i lost control and staring at you over and over. And how embarrassed when i get caught. You became my own reason to go colloge.

I remember when for the first time i texted you, i had waited so long but you didn't reply yet.
I was shocked when you called with your father's number. I feel want to jump and dancing round my room. Just 11 minutes, but it was my precious time. Fortunately, we got same class everday. I dont know when my feeling bigger than before. I used all my own trick so we could come closer. I tried as i could, okay i admitted, we're come closer. You need me as i am. But different requirement.
I need you because you're my own reason to go college, no lie! You need me because i'm the one who helped you with your homework. It's hurt you know. But... honestly i can't let you in trouble with those homework. I always helped as i could.

From a reason, you became my own heroine as edward said hehe.
You can't imaginate how sad i am, if you didn't come. 1 day feel like 1 year. It called when a girl falling in love. It just one day, how about 2 days, 3 days or 1 weeks or 2 months ?! I should find a way so.. you can't be in my mind. That's why i looked for a job. In the end, oh.. not too bad.

When once a day, i saw your photo with a girl. A skinny white girl and i know she would be your new girlfriend. I cried for a night till i feel satisfied. I decided i should forget you. I removed your name in my mind, my contact phone, and my facebook's friend. It was hardest part. I told myself , we never known each other. For beginning was easy. I been busy with my job.

And when you were holiday, i knew you got an accident. I was't too afraid, because i thought it was a small accident ;p. Then, you came home and you'd realized we weren't friend anymore on facebook. You add me back, and unfortunately when with perforce i confirm your request, you were online! BANG! Without BA-BI-BU you asked me to picked up the phone. You asked me why i removed you from friendlist, i have no idea to answered. Because, answerd just one question it meant opened my secret. You thought, i wont be your friend anymore. Then, you told me you got an accident in Bali. I was happy, you needed me when you get a problem. But where were you when you're happy?

I just want to asking, why every i tried forget about you, and when i feel gave up... you came back to my life. Given all of your positif-attidude. Then you leave me alone with a fake hope.
You never know, how hurt it was.

this video accompany me when i was down.
taylor swift such an amazing singer <3

High School

High school is one of the best moments i ever had. And i guess, now i'm agree wth statement who said ' High school is the best moment ever '. Previously, i thougt Junior was the best. But, you know.. God always giving us best to the best :)

On the first year, i was a tomboy girl. I wasn't ashame to join and play with the boys. Played an extremely game, and i'm only the one girl who played 'kuda tomporok - sorry, i don't know in english'
Those boys also never thought i'm a girl, they thought i'm a boy same with them ;(. So.. There wasn't special treatment for me. If you asked to my first year friends, what memory you must remember about me? I bet they would answer 'She was a distributor porn video.'
I admitted, i used to watch porn video with them *by cellular phone without feel horny or something. I know they felt it too. But i'm not remember if i was a distributor :/

Second year was a crazy year. A year where all this memories started. I made friend with some crazy girls. We got a nickname who called 'Geng Gaul', you shouldn't know what it mean. Okay, it doesn't matter if only some friends used that nickname, but it would be a problem if one generation called us too. Do you think it just for a while? No! That nickname, still used for call me. And the most pitiable off all of it is... They calls me Boss or leader from geng gaul ! BANG! But now i enjoying it, it's funny if i remember how angry i am when they calls me boss.

The third year was being a best year ever. You know, separation waiting for us. I love my last class and also my classmates. We were stick together, celebrated Mrs. Sundus's birthday, cheated together and there're other precious moments that i can't said one by one.




-situasion of my class. I missed them so badly


-celebrated mrs. Sundus's birthday <3

Besides, my life wasn't stuck in my class. I got my best buddies ever. I love them much. They were a part of me. Now, even we're apart, but we still keep in touch. I know it's not easy.
With different schedule, different campus, different way, and different time,and without we realized we became different people. Sometime, there's a problem. But what we just need is understanding each other :)

from nothing to be something :)

life

It's been a while since my last posting. I been busy lately.
I got a part time job. But it was really spending my time.
Fyi, my job isn't a kind of awesome job. You know what i mean with part time.
This job gave me a precious lesson. And looking for money isn't easy as we thought.
I spent all my time outside, and i have no time to hanging out as i want before.
But it was fun. I got a lot of friends. And when i was working, there's always a joke inside.

The most righfully proud moment when i got my first salary. Not a big salary. But i really proud of it. I bought a Aquapix with my own money. Okay it's cheap :p. But am i wrong if i'm proud of myself ?

Actually, this job was a secretly job. Only my closest friends who know that. Even my parents.
And how stupid i am, i told my mom about my job. Obviously she hated my decision.
Yeah, i knew, she have a reason. She just afraid it would disturbing my college.
She asked me to out of this job. Its really hard, i love this job.
Dont blame my job if i skipped college. Skipped college is my hobby :p
Hope you understand mom..

bestfriend

This post for my super bestfriend, Kanthi Prasmani who cheers me up everywhere & everytime i need.
Thanks dude, you're my bestfriend in the world :)

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Do you guys have bestfriends?
Make sure you do! To whom you tell all your problems beside your parents? And some of us -labile teenager- can't tell all our problems to our parents.
I'm the one of those. To be honest, i'm not really close with my family. I mean, if i had a problem, to who i could share? Yeepp, to my bestfriend.
For me, just the only one people around the world who knows me well except my family. She is my friend since we were junior.
And you should be jealous, because she almost perfect as besfriend.She is a best place to share my problem. And i guess, not just for me. Everybody loves her.
No matter abour her situasion, she would help you as she could. Actually, i little bit jealous with her characteristic. She is care about everybody, a good listener, and the most important no matter who you are she would make you comfortable to share anything. She should be a psychologis !!!!!!!!!!! I trust she will be a great psychologis. Amin.

And once again, my bestie thanks for tonight. You makes me up when i'm down.
You cheers me up when i'm sad.
And you jajanin me when i'm bokek. HAHAHA just a jokes !
LOVE YOU, BESTIE :)

Okay this is end of THANKS-SESSION.
if you guys have a super besfriend as i am, call or text them 'THANKYOU FOR EVERYTHING YOU'VE DONE. AND I HOPE THERE'S NO END OF THIS FRIENDSHIP. LOVE YOU BEST !'